21 year old senior in college

wow, i think for the rest of my like im gonna have some form of a diary. n i love that, looking back at 8th grade me is interesting, i was a sweet kid, and im still sweet(i would like to believe) adult. hmmm well im currently doing my hair, annoyed by a lab parthner that decided LAST MINUTE the were going to do there part of the work and decided to ignore me and the project like he has the luxury to do that :/// but watevr :/ i digress... that the only pressing thing at the moment BUT im alsomt done with college, bless up and i relized i have to take a year 'off' to take one physics class before i try to admit in to pharmacy school. im judt worried that the school i need to take the physics class in wont accept me or the pharmacy school might not accept me and i DONT WANT TO BE STUCK WITH MY PARENTS (GOOD GOD I REALLY DONT!!!). i guess i just got to take ine averge step at a time and get back up if i fall....(always easier said then done) one thing i can say is that i feel my friends have soon me how shitty adult living truly is, ill prob will be like jessica and live with my parents while working, IF I DONT GET ACCEPTED,which i feel that a little lame to do but hey... got to shallow my pride and do what it takes to forge independents >What am i trying to prove? is this for me? society? family and friends? what is my worth to myself? what do i want out of this life? I want everything... Idontknowhow i dont know what i hate about it idk